[Kimmi Kappenberg]

- Thu May 04, 2017 10:22:05 pm #2663 That was a spicy vote off, who knew Fran had such fire in her?

Well now that that's out of the way, there's only active players left to target. So what's the gameplan moving forward now that you can actually play?

Are you going to target Nick again this round?

What do you make of the way the votes were split tonight?

What's the status of alliances right now?

And you know how much we like our rankings and lists, so if you had complete control over the boot order from here till the end, what would your ideal bootlist look like?

[Aubry]

- Sun May 07, 2017 2:16:39 pm #2713 This post is to answer questions, then a long internal monologue next one!

The game plan is PLAY DEFENSE. I can't believe I was on the wrong side of the merge vote. I literally didn't even care if I voted off one of my BFFs, it was CRITICAL to be on the right side of the vote at the merge and I WASN'T. Stupid. Should have followed my gut, but literally all of my crew were so convinced this was a good idea, and I didn't want to go against them. So now... well, I have to figure out a way to survive after such a fiasco. See the next post as I figure out how tf to do that, LIVE!!!

I am 90% NOT going to target Nick again. That... was a mess. He doesn't trust me for obvious reasons, but I think it's salvageable???? Idk if it is or isn't. He seems to be the leader of the other side so I NEED TO SALVAGE IT. If I don't, I'm probably gone. I could idol him out... but then what?? It would still be 6 against 5. Even if I correctly (CORRECTLY, so hard to do) use my second idol, THAT'S STILL ONLY 5 VS 5. This is just not good for me, not good not good. So no, I need Nick to protect my ass. He's not really talking to me though, so... I'm wigging out a little bit.

The way the votes were split is that everyone took the easy way, but my crew drank some bad koolaid. Tai said they were splitting the votes on Julia. Idk if he was lying or that was the case and then it changed... but either way, Tai fucked us all by feeding us bad intel. And now we have to figure out how tf to survive.

My crew (me, LJ, Lindsey, Julia, and Tai) would be a great alliance, and we seem tight (?) with each other. But we moved too soon and also incorrectly. SO, at first glance, it would look like it's us vs. everyone else. And I think to some extent, that is true. But I'm on a sinking ship and will sell out my crew in a heartbeat if it can get me significantly closer to the end. In. A. Heartbeat. And honestly I have no clue what the other four are doing, but if they were smart they'd be bargaining just like me.

IDEAL BOOTLIST:
Nick. I need his ass to protect me, but he doesn't trust me and I DO NOT BLAME HIM. I tried to vote him out, haven't been on his side truly ever. Soooooooo yeah. In an ideal world, if I could get numbers, he'd be next. But he's the leader of that side as far as I can tell, and now is not the time. Later, hopefully.
Natalie. Ignored me. Sloppy.
Spencer. Ignored me. Sloppy.
Trish. She strikes me as sneaky, and I barely know her and don't trust her. This is superficial, though.
Tai. He's getting blamed for last night, but I think he deserves it to some extent. We're still "tight" (I guess?) so I need him a little more.
Andrea. Too active!! I feel like she's a threat who maybe should be higher on this bootlist, but DAMMIT is she likeable.
Morgan. Not sure where she stands (does she?). She may be swayable...
Steve. He's looking out for me on the other side of the alliance border, but I'm not gonna boot someone (who isn't Tai) from my crew before him. Steve's great though.
Lindsey. She's DAMN good at this game I think. She let me know that my name was being thrown around... truth? Lie? Who cares, it worked to make me trust her a lot. But she could quite possibly win against me.
My ideal f3 is me, Julia, and LJ. I love them and think they're playing fine games, but that's not the perception of others right now. That's a 3 I can work with at FTC. But, it's really way too early to be thinking about that.... I need to just survive through this week.

[Aubry]

- Sun May 07, 2017 3:49:36 pm #2715 Soooooooooo ok. Fk fk fk fk fk fk fk.

I'm wigging out a little bit because, in the wake of last episode's fiasco, I feel like a target. I won immunity by too much, betrayed the leader of the opposite alliance, and I'm pretty sure I'm suspected for having at least one idol. Like... they probably will go after Tai before me (maybe??), but I need to WORK.

I'm mostly anxious BECAUSE NO ONE IS TALKING TO ME. Nick is barely replying, and that's the most concerning. One of three things is happening (or maybe two of these):

1. I'm being targeted and no one is talking to me because why would they.
2. I'm being smoked out - not ACTUALLY targeted, but they want to make me afraid enough to flush out an idol.
3. Everyone is just quiet.

So which is it????? Based on last vote, it's 3. That night was so frightening because it felt like no one was talking, even an hour before TC. Maybe that's just because it was the first tribal, but.... maybe this is just a quiet crowd.

I've been trying to wrap my head around WHICH IT IS. How do I save myself? Should I try to save my crew? Is being on Nick's bad side really the kiss of death?

Word around camp is that Nick isn't even mad at the rest of us, only at Tai for making up shit. Which I do believe, but he may be equally as angry with me. Idk. I can't believe Nick is in control with this right now, but it really seems like he's the only one with a malicious opinion (justifiably, we tried to boot him). So... yeah, he has an opinion, he has control.

So......... here are some options. Bear with me as I write out these pro/con lists.

Suck up to Nick. Say something like "I will literally do anything to restore our relationship. I want to work with you. Tell me who to vote for and I'll do it. It can be Julia, Tai, or Jeff Freaking Probst. I will write anything for this vote. I have something to prove to you and I intend to do that tonight. You and me, period. Just please don't let me go home tonight, I'm so scared." That last part is crucial, in case they're smoking out my idols. PRO: I show that I'm with him and MAYBE will get me in with that alliance (maybe... I did something similar in a previous game and it got me booted). If I go any LESS severe than this, it will likely come off as insincere and make me super untrustworthy. If I succeed in seeming desperate, I won't be an idol threat anymore. CON: will probably have to vote for Julia or Tai. Will put me on the bottom of both alliances (but what are alliances even... they seem so fluid that this isn't much of a concern for me). Will make me entirely vulnerable to Nick's will - he could easily vote me out right then and there (and may, based on his possibly passive aggressive responses... and idk if anyone over there would speak up to save me). Could get back to my crew but I think all of us have to do what it takes to survive right now.

Say I'll do that, but actually not. PRO: ................... nothing. CON: this is a terrible idea... Would just make me even more untrustworthy, would buy me one vote off at best.

Scramble hard purely to save myself. Beg Andrea and Steve to save me. PRO: would really drive home that I am idol-less - the more I scramble, the better. CON: may (probably will) get back to my crew and would make them come at me. COMPROMISE: beg them to save me but don't offer them my vote.

Scramble hard to sway people to our side. Try to sway Andrea, Steve, and Morgan to vote out...??? Whoever they want. This just seems too risky right now, when my position is soooo precarious. If someone else wants to sway them, they can do that. I need to suck up to Nick. PRO: Could take control of this game. CON: Doesn't actually seem likely, both of them were like "I'm gonna stay in this alliance but look out for you." Would make me a major shit stirrer.

Okay, so... it... seems... like... AUGH, I hate this, but I think my only option is to offer my vote to Nick to show I'm loyal (PROBABLY WON'T EVEN WORK BUT TWO IDOLS CAN'T SAVE ME WITHOUT HIS TRUST), and to hit up the others to please please please save my ass.

Use Detwah idol on myself. I am super super super sketched out by the radio silence of everyone. SUPER. If I use an idol on myself tonight after offering my vulnerability to the other side... PRO: SAFE, OBVIOUSLY. CON: No protection going forward. Show I don't really trust Nick and need more protection (DEFEATS THE WHOLE PURPOSE). Can't use idol fear going forward. Seem sneaky cuz I didn't tell anyone.

Fk, so... yes, using an idol to save myself WOULD SAVE MYSELF. But it would not get me in any better with anyone in this game. It would make everyone MORE suspicious of me, and I'd just get booted next. I really believe that. And even if I used ANOTHER idol next time, I still would just be next off... I don't have the votes. Assuming my peo I need to survive this tribal without using idols. It seems crazy short term, but I cannot survive long term in this game without keeping them hidden a little longer.

Give Tai Aomak idol. PRO: Save him, and if he shuts the hell up I can completely be free of blame... it's probably going to be him tonight. CON: Where the fuck is Tai, can I even trust him, who is he, what's true and what's fake. I thought I could trust him, but he's just not around to assuage me right now. I know he's busy, but with all the "I can't believe Tai would make all that up" going around... I just can't give him the idol. I can't. I need that for myself, after all this. If he comes online with a plan, I may change my mind.

Oh my God, okay. Here we go. THIS IS SO SO RISKY BUT IT'S HOW IT HAS TO BE. This is the equivalent of my mom Ciera drawing rocks at 6. I can use idols to save myself now, but that will put a target on me. If I want to win, NOT JUST GET FARTHER, I need to take this risk and keep my idols close.

Julia is very confident we don't even need to scramble. It's Tai, no two ways about it. But I think I need to make that extra leap and reach out to Nick. They could theoretically split it on Tai and me... and Tai COULD have the Hadiboh idol. Though if he had it I could just use mine (unless he waited until the last second to post it specifically to avoid that which HOPEFULLY THE HOSTS WOULD LET ME PLAY IT AT 5 MINS 2 SECONDS PAST THE MINUTE IF THAT WAS THE CASE. So I need to get in good with Nick right now. I nEED to to survive the next few votes. Even if I vote for Julia....

FUCK this is a rough one. But I'm gonna make it work. I will suck up to Nick, and ONLY use an idol (THE DETWAH ONE) if Tai uses one. PERIOD.