- Sun May 14, 2017 10:16:21 pm
#4546
Thanks, it really means a lot. I know all the mods stay (somewhat) impartial and unbiased, but I could sense that some were rooting for me to make it all the way <3
I learned a lot about myself, and I also learned some valuable lessons. While I'm really bummed I got out at 7 and didn't make it to the end, I know WHY I got out, and honestly, I take it as a huge compliment that Aubry must find me as more of a threat than Andrea, somehow. I know I was booted because they didn't want me polluting their game anymore: I was the #1 thing from stopping an easy flow. They knew they needed to break up me and LJ, and I'm shocked they didn't sooner. I went through like, 6 votes not immune, where I didn't play the idol but almost did each time.
It's what every Survivor player says when they get voted out: I got too comfortable. I got too comfortable with having the idol, with feeling like the votes weren't actually going for me. I also learned a lesson that I try to remind myself every day: be more selfish. I know it sounds crazy, and I'm no fucking Mother Teresa or some bullshit, but I should've been greedy. I should've just said "you know what, it's this or next vote I play my idol, I should just play it on myself here to be safe." And I played it on Tai, who has already had an idol played on him! I was just trying to keep numbers, because I do agree with what Tai said at tribal. I think their side wanted to paint him as more of a conniver than he ever was, and that he couldn't be trusted so LJ and I wouldn't build stronger. But, he's been trustworthy with me this entire time. I was going to bring him or Aubry to the final with LJ and I if it was my decision.
So, to answer your other, way more exciting questions: I would play again tomorrow! I had the time of my life and I feel so lucky and grateful that I was reached out to and introduced to Stranded! I really do admire all the work y'all must put in, and if I had the chance to play again, would I change anything?
Yeah, I would be more cutting. I think I was too trusting, too NICE (which I snort at because that's not the first word I would use to describe myself). I think I would be a little more cutthroat, and look out for myself over anyone.
